it's 1.5 hours til your birthday and here I am, miles away from you, wishing so hard I was there right at 00.00, knocking on your bedroom door, looking at your priceless surprised face when I bring you a candle-lit cake.
But sometimes dreams will only be dreams. Pardon my brain, pardon my limitations, but I can only write this note wishing you a super duper blessed birthday, wrapped with sincere prayers, endless good lucks, piles of best wishes.
I may not have a street full of lit-up candles to greet you 'happy birthday' I may not have any surprise party to wake you up in the middle of the night I may not have any grand presents for your birthday
I may not even be on your side on your special day but I'm telling you my outstretched hands are always ready to embrace you and help you out
my smiling eyes always look after you my heart still cares and I'm still here, the same friend you had back then,
only a call away, yes you can always find me on the other side of the phone
well I just got home, after closing the camp with overflowing foods, unexpectedly 'okay' presentations from the kids, and waved goodbyes.
Regardless their limited engRish, this camp has been a really great experience I treasure.
I'm proud to see them trying their best to make the presentations, I was touched to see the sign-board they gave me, and, most importantly,
instead of teaching them *which I think doesnt have that much influence since it's only for two days and we speak Japanese in 90% of the conversations*, I learn how nice it feels to share my thoughts to others, and how priceless to know I can inspire other people, be someone they can look up to and hearing them saying 'I like your presentation and I wanna try harder for my future'.
I am touched indeed.
So, I have taken another step forward on this leading-to-my-future path.
Yes, being an inspiration, passing the blessing I've got, and be SOMEBODY in someone's live have always been one of my dreams - and this camp has given me the chance to put a small piece in this yet incomplete puzzle of my future.
From now on, I gotta continue finding the other scattered pieces. I know it's a tough work but knowing that I have a beyond-wonderful heavenly Father, I believe I can. And so can you.
I'm currently working as one of the leaders of an English camp in my uni for two days where we have to help 250 japanese high school students exploring their dream and thinking how to reach their goals in the future. (I'm currently listed as a 2nd year student in Ritsumeikan Asia Pacific University in Japan)
It has been really great because I get along well the other leaders, the project itself is fun, I make new friends, I learn a lot from the kids, I can practice my japanese ability, and last but not least, I get paid*wink*
BUT the thing is, I kinda had such a high expectations on their english because the program director said it's an english camp and it turned out to be all wrong.
First, at the beginning of the program, we tried to do the ice-breaking games, and the first trouble appeared. I explained the instructions and no one moved. I was stunned. Yes, they dont understand my simple explanation * i just ask them to make a circle,ask about their group mates' hobby, and we will 'test' them afterward*
After that, we had to take them on campus tour. It went pretty much ok because we dont need that much explanation and I also had to make a presentation about how I view my future but since I had my translator with me, it was alright. *my japanese is not good enough to make a presentation. sad*
Then, the last session of the day is preparation for tomorrow's presentation. So we had to help them making presentation about how to make their dreams come true in the globalized society. IT WAS REALLY REALLY HARD,trust me.
Because, they DONT understand the english explanation and I don't understand some of their Japanese explanation either, so we have to use our limited language skills to explain as good as possible. After a hard struggle of using gestures, writing kanjis, finding the easier words to explain, they finally understood what to do, but then it took FOREVER for them to make their own future plan.
Well, I believe doing such thing for senior high school students in Indonesia won't be hard at all. And anyway, they're from Tokyo, people.. yes, TOKYO, the capital city of this so called uber developed country. How come their english is even worse than those students in some small cities in the under-developed Indonesia????
Besides, after spending the whole day with them, I learned how narrow their views are about the world. They don't know what's going on in this world, starting from the closest part of their lives, music for example. They only know Japanese music.
They don't know who on earth is Condoleezza Rice.
And other facts that really wow-ed me. It really makes me wonder how could Japan be a leading county if their young generation don't speak English and live their under-the-rock-life.
Being a part of this camp has really opened my eyes that there REALLY are certain points at which Indonesians are even better than the Japanese. Then if we have such skills than it's surely possible for us to reach higher than the Japanese do.
The world does need English. And we've already possessed one of the world's needs. So let's add some other skills up and I believe, starting from the small scale, we can pile up the efforts to make Indonesia a better country. =)
I got tagged..and since I (pretend to) have nothing to do..yes I'm writing them down now
fact #1 it's 2.19am with final exam and report waiting in the next two days, but instead of getting tired after extracting my brain,I feel truly refreshed because i just got back from KARAOKE...yes.karaoke instead of studying will bring you luck for the exams.*amen*
fact #2 I'm missing last week times. (read: hijacking my neighbor's room, glueing our eyes on youtube, cuddling around to bed, get up late with nothing much to do, slack off) argh, screw exams week!
fact #3 i seriously can NOT stand temptation whatever the form is..food, whoring over the internet instead of studying, and some stuffs
fact #4 I keep telling my self to stop everyday, know i should stay away, yet deep down inside I'm still gripping tightly on it
fact #5 It's 2 degrees here today. It's still mid november and the weather forecast said it's gonna snow tomorrow. It's freakin weird since it started to snow around the last days of december last year
fact #6 I haven't been in the shower for err..2 days? and my hair smells like ciggs. shoot
fact #8 I'm supposed to be in the shower, get ready to sleep because it's 2.32am and I'm planning to go for a so-called-relieving-trip at 9am tomorrow and it's gonna be for the whole day. Guess I better start piling up enough energy from now
HOMEWORK'S RULES: 1. Each blogger must post this rules. 2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themseves. 3. Blogger that are tagged need to write about their own blog about their ten things and post. these rules . You need to choose some people to get tagged and list their names . 4. Don't forget to live them a comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog.
if it doesn't, check these pictures out, maybe you'll find out what's it all about
as a result of a pile of those asstivitiesof mine in the past few days, me and my friend found some nice photography websites and those miniature look alike photographs are the result of tilt-shift photography, one of the dope works of Vincent Laforet's that have successfully made me drooling.
yes that's the word when I logged in to facebook this morning. I got a friend request and seriously stunned when I see the 'nightlife-photographer of the year'awarded Nikola Tamindzicadded me as his friend. And now I'm regretting that I didn't take any screen shot of that page. I know it's corny but I am just so WOWed with this.
well I know him through a friend and have always been mesmerized by his amazing works.Well I even have put his link on this blog if you notice since the first time I had it.
So, Nicola Tamindzic is the man behind the famoushome of the vain and ambrel. Yes, two of other photography websites I've always been whoring over.
The new semester has started for a month and it has been awesome indeed.
i've moved from my previous dorm to my new sea-side apt downtown with special people living 6 floors below.
this far, i've been spending my days staying late by whoring over the internet *thank you, neighbor for the influence that now I'm spending hours over rakuten and yahoo auction idly haha*- talking and cuddling to bed- waking up late- another morning greetings=p - wake up knock by our other neighbor on my door - rushing to get ready and catch the bus- classes - another bus ride - wandering in town - find somewhere for dinner - and keep the same routine
Bored? Sure not.
Here I go, counting my blessings
How many of you go back from school, finding your guy is craving for some flowers to decorate his balcony, and get picked up on his back all the way to the florist because he knows your high heeled shoes are killing you?I know its cheesy. But well it's a good reason to laugh your bums off anyway.
How many of you can wake up in the morning knowing the one you care the most is beside you, snoring peacefully in your arms?
How many of you can open the window and hear the sea-wind breezing?
How many of you can spend the whole day slacking off without having to do any school works?
You see how my life here has been blessed tremendously.
I bet not so many people have the chance to do the same routine as I do and I thank my heavenly Daddy sincerely for these wonderful privileges.
And thank you to the one that has been the subject of those written words above=)
2. i gotta drag my lazy ass out of the bed because I had to withdraw money to buy the one-year-pass bus ticket which costs like HEEELLL...*okay if you say $1000 for a bus card is cheap.It's not hell for you and I raise my hand,hail you
3. i went out from my room finding a warning from my apt's security..saying im not supposed to put any private property in the passage *yea I tried to dry my used umbrella there
4. i had to ride on my bike and hold the half-broken umbrella at the same time for a 10mins ride in the middle of the rain.
5. the wind kept blowing my umbrella.
6. i got to the mall finding I cant withdraw the money for some technical errors, probably due to moslem's super big day tomorrow.
it pissed me off because the bus ticket is only sold til 2 days from now.and it took me 3 days to withdraw the whole money because the bank limits me to take only $500 per day and i gotta withdraw another $500 for my friend.
7. i went back to my apt still with bicycle and umbrella for the torturing 10mins.
8. here i am..pissed off
WELL, rain has never been as pretty as that pic for me.never been good.
it's been raining for the whole 3 days here and I've always cursed on rainy lonely days.
if you say rain is such a romantic time.
if you say rain can sooth you up.
if you say rain can calm you down.
i say C L I C HE.
rain wets your clothes.
rain ruins your shoes.
rain makes it less convenient to go out especially here, where I have to go around by bicycle.
rain brings gloomy atmosphere for me.
rain ruins my mood.
rain drives me melancholic.
rain makes me miss you.
if only you were here, I'd probably hate this rain a little less.
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The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything.He will use it against you later.You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... Even if he has more education or in a better job.Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals.
Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. When a man always knows where you are, and you're
always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.Make him miss you sometimes...
Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other women and men (just so they know)... You'll make someone smile, another rethink herchoices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.