Tuesday, September 30, 2008

words from a friend

a true friend never walks away
a true friend will always stay

a true friend looks out for you    
a true friend will guard your secret, like a precious gift
a true friend is always there for you, to give you a helpful lift
a true friend tries to make you smile, tries to replace that frown
they may not always succeed, but they rarely let you down

these arms for you are open
this heart for you does care
and when i think you need me, i'll try to always be there

i'll listen to your fear, i promise not to laugh
i'll comfort you from falling tears

i'll make this friendship  last
i'll keep you near to my heart
i'll always hold you even when we're miles apart

I hope I am to you, everything you are to me
for the friendship we have, is a special one indeed.

yes, you guys are everything

special dedications for Ndutty, Denise, Hanna, Sarra, Shane

i always have reasons to hate the RAIN

it's been a hard day for me.
1. i got up finding it was raining outside. 

2. i gotta drag my lazy ass out of the bed because I had to withdraw money to buy the one-year-pass bus ticket which costs like HEEELLL...*okay if you say $1000 for a bus card is cheap.It's not hell for you and I raise my hand,hail you

3. i went out from my room finding a warning from my apt's security..saying im not supposed to put any private property in the passage *yea I tried to dry my used umbrella there

4. i had to ride on my bike and hold the half-broken umbrella at the same time for a 10mins ride in the middle of the rain. 

5. the wind kept blowing my umbrella.

6. i got to the mall finding I cant withdraw the money for some technical errors, probably due to moslem's super big day tomorrow.
it  pissed me off because the bus ticket is only sold til 2 days from now.and it took me 3 days to withdraw the whole money because the bank limits me to take only $500 per day and i gotta withdraw another $500 for my friend.

7. i went back to my apt still with bicycle and umbrella for the torturing 10mins.

8. here i am..pissed off
WELL, rain has never been as pretty as that pic for me.never been good.
it's been raining for the whole 3 days here and I've always cursed on rainy lonely days.
if you say rain is such a romantic time.
if you say rain can sooth you up.
if you say rain can calm you down.
i say C L I C HE.

rain wets your clothes.
rain ruins your shoes.
rain makes it less convenient to go out especially here, where I have to go around by bicycle.
rain brings gloomy atmosphere for me.
rain ruins my mood.
rain drives me melancholic.
rain makes me miss you. 
if only you were here, I'd probably hate this rain a little less.


Monday, September 29, 2008


(clockwise from top) Kokoh Lie Lestari, Yuri Ardila, Iqro Anugrah, Aditya Simapranata, Himawan Mulyo Adi, Garri Juanda

see you in less than a week!!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

im the one who read and re-think =)


If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was nottreating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don't stay because you think "it will get better".
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why
would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. 
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.He will use it against you later.You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
Even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.A man will only treat you the way you
ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.You should not be the one doing all the bending...
compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...

Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals.
Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. 
When a man always knows where you are, and you're
always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.Make him miss you sometimes...
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile, another rethink herchoices, and another woman prepare.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

the untold 'thank yous'

..no use in trying when the pieces dont fit anymore..

the hardest things in life come when you have to make decision using your brain instead of your heart

i made a big one and found it's true..indeed
yet i never regret those things in the past
thanks to KIJIMA KOGEN where Ive been doing the part-time job for letting my mind wander around and about
i just looked back to those 3 wonderful years and found a pile of reasons to thank the person i spent those times with

here goes the list..
- thank you for the 3 priceless years
- thank you for being around in these past 14 years out of 19 years of my life
- thank you for every wake up call that helped me succeeding the national exams
- thank you for helpin me with those never-ending high school times
- thank you for being on the other side of the phone, listening to me crying, complaining, or telling boring stories
- thank you for sitting in the silence while i was busy thinking
- thank you for making me stronger because i knew you're always there
- thank you for being my super best friend
- tahnk you for every holding hand
- thank you for every comforting hug
- thank you for the laughter
- thank you for every single tear we shed
- thank you for those yet irreplacable lame jokes
- thank you for being such a great fooling-around partner
- thank you for the birthday surprises (also special thanks to my lifetime best friend, Fitria Anindita Putri for deleting the whole pics)
- thank you for letting me be me and still stand it
- thank you for knowing me that well and let me win most of the fights ( i know i was beyond selfish those days)
- thank you for being my number one supporter during my final paper struggle (also thanks to all the viruses in my computer for making me re-type the whole thing)
- thank you for takin me after school everytime my stomach kills
- thank you for pickin me up in the middle of the night just to make sure i get home safely
- thank you for every single mile you drove me
- thank you for being beyond patient, teaching me how to drive
- thank you for letting me drive, bringing you into those near-death rides
- thank you for selling your precious soccer-match ticket  just to go out with me and I ended up cancelling the plan (i know i was such a pain in the ass)
- thank you for those finally-given-after-3-years bouquet of flowers
- thank you for teaching  me how to be grateful
- thank you for making me realize how important it is to appreciate what we've got before it's gone
- thank you for making  me wiser
- thank you for bringin me to a higher level of life
- thank you for making my mom finally said, "you know, you had a really good guy"
- thank you for being the reason i felt "i once found the one"
- thank you for being THAT good
- thank you for those things listed above and the rests that i cant think off the top of my head

sorry for taking those blessing for granted all these times
I just realized it takes a big heart to do so and Im telling you, you have that big heart
thank you.


thank you for once making it US

good luck, Mr.future doctor
you're in my prayers<3

Friday, September 26, 2008

back to You, it always comes around

..as the deer panteth for the water, so my soul longeth after Thee..

" but seek first the  kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."
Matthew 6:33

I just lately  realized how God is always around us in the little simple things that we take for granted.
God is around us..He looks upon us through the beautiful morning sunshine and moonlight
God is around us..He showers us with blessings through our loving parents
God is around us..He pours the love through our sisters and brothers
God is around us..He guides us to a brighter future through our teachers and professors
God is around us..He puts laughter and smile through our friends
God is around us..He feeds us through all the good foods we eat
God is around us..He keeps us from sins and evil through His word
God is around us..He lets us grow and learn through the troubles we face
God is around us..He's only a prayer away
God is around us..He just is

Dont miss out on a blessing just because it isn't packaged the way that you expect.

"Be strong and of good courage: do not be afraid, nor be dismated; for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go" JOSHUA 1:9

"The Lord, He is the one who goes before you. He will be with you, he will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed" DEUTERONOMY 31:8

" For this God is our God for even and ever; He will be our guide even to the end" PSALM 48:14

God is good.
be good=)

midnight trash

it's been 3 weeks since i got into this endless boredom..
been busy with my part-time job where i gotta deal with dishes, super dirty water, not-good-for-your-hands chemical,yet nice income and another source for great foods*wink*

thank God it's finally 6 more days til school starts and it's 8 more days til 'a really good friend of mine' is here

yes, im counting down.....

Thursday, September 25, 2008

expert in losing.never good at goodbyes

what have we done, was it wrong?
OH, dont touch it's too much
good luck, dont get stuck, turn around before you can't go back

Wednesday, September 3, 2008


back in japan after two weeks away going back home...truly kills.

have tonssss to write about home and the likes but since someone's just left and i guess im gonna miss him a BIT..i guess i'll be spending the upcomin hours whoring over the internet,watching the sun rises from my new room's window*which is super good since i live on the 9th floor..by the side of the beach*, and probably be working with those pics on my cam.

missed you already, my pain-in-the-ass-yet-missable mate=)
have a safe and sound trip..see ya in a month